Thursday, October 11, 2012

moved to a new city, new tattoo, new man, happiness

Dear Universe:

It has been nearly a year again since I wrote on this blog.
For those of you that have left; that's alrite. For those of  you who have stayed; thank you and my life is more rich for your presence.
  • I am glad that I left the city where I lived for over 10 years. I only miss my family and some select friends. It was the right thing to do. When I do visit I feel recharged and loved and I hope they all know that. Mom, Dad, Kelly, Brendan, Reagan, Gillian, Molly, Tab, Phil & Marie (and their family).
  • I now work for a Dermatologists office and I am very happy. I work for a motely crew but a great one. A really great office manager and bosses. I especially like one of the nurses. She is a god-send and an amazing soul.
  •  I wasnt dating before because it seemed to make me crazy and less inclined to improve myself. Its true and then again it wasnt. I was more focused on my fitness and character improvement but I allowed being single to be a nagging voice in my ear - whispering "youre still not good enough". I have met someone wonderful and he has two great children. I feel very fulfilled and happy and every day is a different challenge. I realize I am very lucky and I press through the tough times and cherish the easy ones. I would not trade anything for what I have with them.
  • I was working in the hospitality industry and over a year found that (that particular one) did not promote from within without a pedigree. By pedigree I mean- 'your parents are in the tax bracket we are more comfortable with so we will promote you'. Not to be ugly but that is the trend that I saw and it never deviated from that. Sadly at my resignation several other employees followed and there was a very big turnover. I hope management noticed and is taking better care of the people there who need recognition and promotion.  
  • Extra job? Yup, still need one. My car will be paid off this November but it already rolled past  100,000. *unhappy face* Finding the manual has proved elusive as-all-get-out. I do have a feeler out to a local NAPA auto parts store. Maybe that will pan out.  I REALLY need to familiarize myself with my car and get my head above water financially (without a car payment for at least a year). I'd still love to buy something for cash that gets much better gas mileage.  I'm exploring motorcycle lessons and a small engine motorcycle!
  • The big picture is STILL to be out of debt by 40 yrs old with much better credit. This is for peace of mind and to qualify for the things I'll need in the future for my family and my boyfriends family (if we marry).
  • I really feel that I chose my new city well (Savannah/Guyton). Its beautiful and there is ALWAYS something to do! Festivals, concerts, outdoor activities! Its the best move Ive ever made and living in the burbs (besides the gas mileage) is smart, too. I can enjoy the city and all its awesomeness and retire out in the country to the quiet.
  • I'm learning that friends are much more important than I ever imagined. The ones that I previously mentioned have still stuck closer than what some people have for family. I went home and was received like a sister at a friends house out in the country. She was funny, gracious, down-to-earth and loving. I wish I could see her at least once a month. I really have found out who my friends are and I am very grateful and humbled by this. 
  • The local 5k and half marathon I signed up for I compeleted and did well in! I have rested on my laurels a bit and gained some weight/lost my fitness edge some. I recently started back walking and have lost 10lbs. I have 65 more to go and I KNOW I can do it!
  • I have not seen much of my family due to recovering from being paid so poorly at my first job in this town. While I was grateful for the experience and appreciated being employed...I implore you to all be more kind to hotel clerks (esp night clerks)...it did not afford me any time or ability to see my family but once. I miss them very much and feel that I have accomplished a little more in life and feel I can go home with my head raised a little higher. I hope to see them this Christmas/Thanksgiving. I'd also really love if they came and visited me. As I said before; I don't think they love me less at where I am now but it would be nice to make them more comfortable with my accomplishments than uncomfortable empathizing about my woes.
  • Have a new tattoo!! Im 5 hours in and probably have another 5 and a half hours to go. Its a giant red pacific octopus emerging from stormy seas! It matches the sea turtle on my left hip in style and I will eventually connect the two with more water/waves. See?
  • My best friend moved away to accomplish furthering his career in the finance world. He is unhappy at the present and I am very upset about this. While weve' had our differences- he is a wonderful man that deserves all that life has to offer. I hope he finds his niche soon and settles into a better area.
- To my remaining followers or those who's blogs I follow: I hope you are all well and that things are going well/wonderful in your lives.

Namaste!

Friday, August 26, 2011

so many things so much to say

Dear Universe:
It has been over a year since I wrote on this blog.
Many people have probably stopped reading it (since there was nothing to read) or un-subscribed; that's okay. I think the best part about blogging isn't the responses but getting things out there; and in writing. Being able to read older things and learn about yourself is important.
  • I have left the city where I lived recently. Besides family-there was nothing there for someone without children above 25 yrs old, and no alimony to blow every weekend)
  • I left the job that was probably killing me; inside and out.
  •  I am not dating because it seemed to make me crazy and less inclined to improve myself.
  • I am working in the industry I have always wanted to work in. It is great (except for some of the coworkers [but hey; who hasn't felt that way before?]). While I may not be able to get far in this job; I am learning networking from friends that would startle most socioeconomic figure heads in the area. That seems to be how you find out where the really high paying jobs are that have promotion probability. I want to be nominally happy in what I do for a living but I need it to pay damn more than what I have been earning.
  • Ive decided to pick up an extra job. I want to pay off my car and repair it before it hits 100,000 mi. I would love to find a mechanic that would give me the service manual so I can REALLY familiarize myself with my car and get my head above water financially without a car payment for at least a year. Then I'd like to buy something for cash that gets much better gas mileage.
  • The big picture is to be out of debt by 40 yrs old with much better credit to qualify for a house in this city/the area.
  • I still feel that I chose my new city well. I like the 'vibe' but the dating scene has some ugly gremlins. While there are lots of men...most of them seem to want a young, firm little co-ed for dating. I cant fault them for looking for young and cute- were' all human (some more shallow than others). I can fault them for trying to press their requirements on me. I don't fit into your perfect little pattern?-then don't string me along. I am learning to recognize and get rid of men that are not good for me/for anything .
  • I'm learning that friends are much more important than I ever imagined. Some have stuck to me closer than what some people have for family. When you disappear and 'change your playground' you really find out who your friends are. Those that keep up with you are the ones you should cherish.
  • I have signed up for a local 5k coming up and also for a half marathon coming up. Ive been walking and jogging off and on for the last 8/6 mos and feel I can probably excel at this particular exercise. So far I enjoy it and once and a while I will do races and try to keep it fun. A group of friends are sponsoring me this time and I am humbled/very happy.
  • I miss my family very much but feel that I cannot go back to see them without accomplishing a little more. Maybe Christmas or Thanksgiving at the soonest. I don't think they love me less at where I am now but it would be nice to make them more comfortable with my accomplishments than uncomfortable empathizing about my woes.
- To my remaining followers or those who's blogs I follow: I hope you are all well and that things are going good in your lives.

Love and Light!
(credit for illustration to yuumei> Wenqing Yan)

Monday, November 9, 2009

Bocce Ball, piercings, good food, family

Dear Universe:
Thank you for family; first and foremost, that I could never live without.
My sister taught me Bocce Ball this weekend and I had a great time! We decided there should be new rules...you should always play with a lounging dog on the first 2 feet of play area, you should smash a finger (for good luck?) with the balls, and should play on an area with deviations (rocks, poo, grass, vole hole divots, and tree root snarls) for added difficulty.

She also showed me how to start a fire with three sticks and a rock. No, really...she's a wilderness guide and demonstrated with amazing proficiency how to start a whole (albeit small [in our folks driveway]) campfire without a lighter/matches. Then we sat outside and listened to music and stooged. We also had my niece outside for a few hours, ran her ragged and she also demolished a organic box of Cheddar Bunnies. (actually demolished). We roasted hot dogs and marsh mellows on the small fire and giggled the whole time. The hot dogs didn't turn out so good but the marsh mellows were great.

My dearest friend George cooked an incredible meal for my family this weekend. Just because. Isn't he awesome?! An Italian-Bread-Crumb-&-Parmesan encrusted chicken breasts meal with potatoes and green beans. He's beyond 'a catch' he's wonderfully ideal! I saw a falling star that night and held his hands and gave my wish for 'happiness' to him. It needs to come true. He deserves it.

I helped put up extra fencing for my dogs' escape moves he has now perfected. Leaping over the very high fence if there are loose dogs, kids on bikes, etc outside the fence is his new talent.

My sister compared notes with me about the addition to my tattoo I want and gave me some professional artist's input. I will be sketching for the next few months and probably use my PrismaColors down to nubs but hopefully I can flesh out (ha-ha) what I am hoping to do near the end of next summer. I'll take it to the wonderful souls at Black Orchid in Savannah and see how things go. Nearly a full belt! Cross your fingers folks!

Today we went to my dad's office and got our flu shots (H1N1)...ugh. Then finished out our errands with camping supply shopping and a quick interlude at Beyond Taboo. Yay! My jewelry's back in and my sis re-pierced her Labret piercing. We laughed at some of the flash tattoos and had a generally good day. She bought brunch and I bought a little chow for all before we headed home. 


I cooked dinner tonight for my family. Instant dinner type stuff, but dinner nonetheless.They were tired and had been wonderful and unfailingly great all weekend.I really do need to learn to 'cook' more but I'd rather learn belly dancing or some other talent; LOL. 

Despite not sleeping well lately ...this has been a wonderful past four days.

(on a last and sad note: one of my sisters college friends was a victim in the Ford Hood shooting. Prayers and well wishes out to the young man's family) 

Thursday, November 5, 2009

what to expect

Dear Universe:

-Why is it okay to for women to moon over romantic movies and books and 'wish' men were more like that?  Its as foolish as men mooning and 'wishing' we were all something women are 'not' (going to do/be all the time). Maybe its time for women to put down the bodice ripper novels and Cosmo and the men to turn off Spike TV and put down Maxim....and they should look for 'real' and wonderful people they realize they arent supposed to be media-programmed for.


- I'm going to boycott 'media romance' in as many forms as I can for a bit and I bet I'll come out of the stupor and appreciate normal, wonderful men much more.
-My dog is having issue with staying in the yard. *sigh* Best dog in the world 80% of the time. Guess I had this coming.
- and at the mention of eating cold spaghetti of a newly made friend...I tried it. She's right! Its wonderful.

Sunday, October 18, 2009

finding new rythms

Dear Universe:

Thank you for the chance to get to know your parents better. Sometimes theyre sweeter and cooler than you ever thought.
Thank you for nieces that make you laugh till you have to run for the bathroom.
Thank you for someone fixing something of mine and asking for nothing but a hug in return.
Thank you for being alone in the house and being able to cry and 'get it out' and no one asking you what's wrong or having to put it into words.
Thank you for silly dogs...god I love my dog and my mother's Wolfhounds.


Thank you for being able to sew...its therapeutic and I can add that to 'mah skills' list.
Thank you for 'cleaning' being something that I can use to deal with anger, frustration, and general piss-offed-ness.

Wednesday, October 7, 2009

close calls, blessings, family

Dear Universe:
Thank you for my sister living through totaling her car tonight. She and her daughter are ok. I am still kinda stunned. She had just paid it off and was enjoying having a little extra money.
Please keep her safe and send better things her way because she needs it and she is a deserving, good, wonderful person and mother.

Sunday, October 4, 2009

kiddos and lazy Sundays

Dear Universe:
Thank you for showing me what wisdom a one year old can bestow....
* there is more to be laughed at than you first perceive
* greeting the day happily is a great start for you and those around you
* sharing string cheese is funny when it sticks to you
* naps are good
* falling down is eventually 'ok' if you get back up, accept the hug and inspection and get on with things
* pets are hilarious
* muffins (especially if made with love by someone else) are great!
* make up is not needed to feel wanted, loved and worth a smile.
* body function (most; not all) noises are funny
* letting another gal do your hair up in sunflower barrettes is therapeutic
* shoe boxes are fun long after the shoes are gone

Dear Universe:
Baby gates & cupboard child locks are great for keeping the kiddos safe. Broken finger nails & bruised shins are the tradeoffs, LOL (that is; until you're a seasoned Auntie)

Saturday, October 3, 2009

misconceptions

Dear Universe:
Thank you for letting me spend the day with my sister and niece and showing me the how silly my misconceptions were about motherhood, and auntiehood. Today was a really great day and I am so very, very lucky!